Change on Purpose
I’ve got crap in my life.
I’m a screw-up. I hold grudges. I bend the truth. I’m opinionated and rub it in people’s faces. I break things and try to hide them so no one finds out. I take so much pride in my work that I unfairly criticize the honest work of others. I have a temper, and when I get angry, I become irrational, almost violent at times.
I’m discontent with myself. I hunger for more, for better.
God expects me to be a much different kind of person. Jesus Christ, the model of Christianity, demonstrated perfect love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faith, gentleness, and self-control.
Maybe my expectations for myself are too high, but I strive for the perfection that Christ modeled. And I am far from it.
One thing that I have learned along the way, though, is this:
Change doesn’t happen on accident.
If I want to better represent Christ, I have to pursue it intentionally.
To overcome my pride, I have to respect the work of others. So I try to step back from myself and honestly evaluate their work. I look at their level of experience, at the amount of time that they had to invest in the work, and at the degree of training that they’ve had. And usually I find that, for their situation, they did a pretty remarkable job. Probably better than I would have done in the same situation.
To overcome my anger, I have to understand the perspective of others. So I try to step back from myself and see their history. I look at how they were raised, what their life experiences have taught them, and what issues they have in their lives currently. I also have to look at myself. Did my words, tone, actions, or body language convey a message that I didn’t intend? Usually, the answer is yes.
I know God forgives my misdeeds, but I desire to be as close to him as possible. And I know that I’m not going to wake up one morning and suddenly have it all together, so I take each step at a time.
One deliberate step at a time.
I founded this website, although it certainly wouldn’t exist without the encouragement and support of all of the site’s writers (not to mention the countless others in my life that have pressed me to deepen and explore my faith). I live in Kansas City, MO. I’m married to the beautiful and brilliant Shannon Greene (yes, the same one that writes for this site). For a living, I design and build websites. I love what I do.
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This is a blog for challenging assumptions, building faith, and developing a stronger community. The two channels of this blog – Faith and Narrative – push us to know ourselves and the world around us more intimately. Want to learn more about us?